A moment of devotion

Around 6 pm at Guffa mandir in Preet Vihar, It was Aarti time. As we entered, pandit ji asked him to ring the bell for aarti. Aarti is something to convey Ur thanks to god and to pray for being blessed.
Though I don't like high volume sounds, but there is something magical in the sound of the temple bells. It makes Ur mind to concentrate on god. It could vary from person to person and time to time.

Aarti started. We were in front of lord shiv and Goddess Parvati along with Lord Ganesh. I was standing in between of lord's family and him my future family. Mantra chants started, bell started ringing, once twice thrice.... n kept on going..  I really do believe in God's plans. Just to remind Bhagwan ji.
Me: " Bhagwan ji, this is the guy behind me who is ringing the bell and I know what he has asked to you.. Will u please please listen to him n bless him."

Lord Shiva smiled. n me too. I looked back, he was still busy in offering his services. By the time I was only able to see, was lord Shiva's family and him. only sound which were reaching to my mind was bells sound. he looked at me as he is saying "I m here don't worry. m ok. my hands are not aching".
I turned back.

"Thank u bhagwan ji, I promise I will take care of him throughout my life. Please give me this chance to do so."

Fear of Loosing

We were on the way back to home in our cab. As usual our back seats, which were almost the permanent seats for us. His phone rings. It was Manish(cousin brother), who is a huge fan of him. Only things which attracted my attention towards their talk was "Nhi karni". The first ever felt fear of loosing him, which almost took my breath away. These talks over the phone call was about the marriage proposal which was for him. Though he had denied it but it was dreadful for me to even think about it. Just some words were more than enough to make me restless. We were holding hands before the call and now the grip got more firm from my side after this call. As if holding his hand tighter could stop him. It was the time I was not able to realise that we were not alone. My head landed in his lap with closed eyes and holding his hands firmly. It stayed like this for most of the time till the time we reached at my drop point. Still I was not ready to get down but I needed to. Though He tried alot to hold my restlesness, but it was too much to be handled.
Thanks alot to god to help me to clear up my mind that what I need in my life. :)